For those of us with an anxiety disorder, episodes often interfere with the ability to perform everyday activities. It’s a condition extremely misunderstood and we’re seldom given the tools to deal with it in our development or career.

I have dealt with severe anxiety since childhood, and while it has greatly improved, there are days when it paralyzes me, makes me shake, glues me to the bed, and even on good days, I still fear a lot of situations that are very necessary for me to navigate.

The blog. This started as a place where I’d offer advice for typical anxiety-provoking situations, but I realized by limiting my writing to one purpose, I was ignoring a crucial first step in breaking my own anxiety, which is to re-establish my voice in a public space. So this is now a place where I will write, for anyone who wants to read.

Singing. I’ve sang my entire life, and having that skill with severe anxiety is difficult, because it comes out full blast during auditions, performances, and recordings. I’ve become so scared of that feeling, I’ve recoiled into a space where I have barely performed or recorded videos for years. I criticize myself deeply for this, and that anger has just made me freeze in my hidden place, instead of risking that vulnerability again. So posting recordings is my first step out again, and here is the place those are housed.

Photos I take when talking is too hard. I’ve gone many years of keeping my creativity inside. The longer I went without expression, I felt myself becoming smaller and more scared. So I’m simultaneously using this site to build back the voice I’ve lost, through various mediums. This section is my voice through photography. Selections of moments captured from the observing stance I often seek.

Probably more sections to come. For now, enjoy what’s here.